Cold Truth
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ok.
i have slept with a pretty fair amount of women. i have had my little fantasies fulfilled, i did all the freaky shit i wanted to do and lived it up. honestly that was never really my steeze, i was always a relationship type of guy but when women make a sport out of breaking your heart, you can get a little tired of gettin walked on, and some people get bitter.
i got bitter and said, "fuck it" and my new motto was, "Use 'Em, Abuse 'Em, and Lose 'Em". i had a lot of sex, a lot of times with just random females i would meet that night, and unprotected most of the time. sometimes i did, a few times i even used a condom on a regular basis, but ultimately didnt care for them.
anyhow, fast forward, because i met "the one" for me. everything i ever wanted, she gives me, and she is a "good" girl. she knows all about my past and all the emotional shit that came with it (yeah i said it, emotional. its a lot to the story but i wont bother with details) and didnt even flinch. so we fell and fell hard, and wouldnt you know it.... she gets sick, passes out at work (she teaches special ed, no less) and calls me up crying, wanting answers. turns out, she has herpes. she got it from me- i know because she has a verry recent test to show it.
i know also, because i have both type oneand two- but she only has type one. which means that, for all intents and purposes, our future together sexually will be either nonexistant or maaaaad careful, niether of which is attractive but whatever. she has been real sick, and has unusually long break outs. it has been two months and she has yet to really heal up- and this is just type one (there are details to that as well that complicated things, but type one shouldnt do what it is doing to her).
so, i found out from my doctor today that while there are preventative measures, the only real way to assure that i dont pass it to her is to 1. avoid oral contact, and 2. make sure she wears a female condom during intercourse.
anyhow, there are a lot more complications and details to this, but seriously, its tough. herpes was never something i thuoght anything of, but it has had devestating consequences to us. there have been emotional, physical, sexual, financial and spiritual strains all around...
anyhow, this is a just my own personal PSA- be safe. stop playin around if you are. use protection if you are, and make sure you test regularly. dont mess with random people. not even oral. its more then aids/hiv and hep c that there is to worry abuot, herpes aint no joke. some people live with it wihtout any problems, but for us its been a nightmare.
and please, please, please educate your children. my life- and hers, especially- has been completely upside down for two months since this all came to a head and it doesnt look to be slowing down. dont let yourselves wind up in that boat. it isnt worth it.
the worst part about it, is believing in God the way that i do, and knowing that i lived completely against that belief in that aspect, messed me up as well. any of you who share my belief in God, please let this serve as a testimony to you- there are consequences to your sins. i am paying a price for mine, and she is paying an even greater price for something that she had nothing to do with. i went against a criticial spiritual value of mine, and that is an issue all its own. the time to live right, to change your ways, to not only live right under God's decree but to those who do not believe, the time to remove yourselves from harms way, is now.
i have slept with a pretty fair amount of women. i have had my little fantasies fulfilled, i did all the freaky shit i wanted to do and lived it up. honestly that was never really my steeze, i was always a relationship type of guy but when women make a sport out of breaking your heart, you can get a little tired of gettin walked on, and some people get bitter.
i got bitter and said, "fuck it" and my new motto was, "Use 'Em, Abuse 'Em, and Lose 'Em". i had a lot of sex, a lot of times with just random females i would meet that night, and unprotected most of the time. sometimes i did, a few times i even used a condom on a regular basis, but ultimately didnt care for them.
anyhow, fast forward, because i met "the one" for me. everything i ever wanted, she gives me, and she is a "good" girl. she knows all about my past and all the emotional shit that came with it (yeah i said it, emotional. its a lot to the story but i wont bother with details) and didnt even flinch. so we fell and fell hard, and wouldnt you know it.... she gets sick, passes out at work (she teaches special ed, no less) and calls me up crying, wanting answers. turns out, she has herpes. she got it from me- i know because she has a verry recent test to show it.
i know also, because i have both type oneand two- but she only has type one. which means that, for all intents and purposes, our future together sexually will be either nonexistant or maaaaad careful, niether of which is attractive but whatever. she has been real sick, and has unusually long break outs. it has been two months and she has yet to really heal up- and this is just type one (there are details to that as well that complicated things, but type one shouldnt do what it is doing to her).
so, i found out from my doctor today that while there are preventative measures, the only real way to assure that i dont pass it to her is to 1. avoid oral contact, and 2. make sure she wears a female condom during intercourse.
anyhow, there are a lot more complications and details to this, but seriously, its tough. herpes was never something i thuoght anything of, but it has had devestating consequences to us. there have been emotional, physical, sexual, financial and spiritual strains all around...
anyhow, this is a just my own personal PSA- be safe. stop playin around if you are. use protection if you are, and make sure you test regularly. dont mess with random people. not even oral. its more then aids/hiv and hep c that there is to worry abuot, herpes aint no joke. some people live with it wihtout any problems, but for us its been a nightmare.
and please, please, please educate your children. my life- and hers, especially- has been completely upside down for two months since this all came to a head and it doesnt look to be slowing down. dont let yourselves wind up in that boat. it isnt worth it.
the worst part about it, is believing in God the way that i do, and knowing that i lived completely against that belief in that aspect, messed me up as well. any of you who share my belief in God, please let this serve as a testimony to you- there are consequences to your sins. i am paying a price for mine, and she is paying an even greater price for something that she had nothing to do with. i went against a criticial spiritual value of mine, and that is an issue all its own. the time to live right, to change your ways, to not only live right under God's decree but to those who do not believe, the time to remove yourselves from harms way, is now.
